Happy 2019 Friends! I hope you and your loved ones had a fab holiday season and that your New Year is off to a great start.
December 28 marked the 6 month mark in my journey as a stay at home mom. It doesn’t feel like it’s been that long, but I also have a hard time remembering what life was like before this.
I wrote a to do list a mile long when I first started staying home. My expectation was I’d get through it rather quickly. I honestly believed that my house would be sparkling clean on the regular. That my closet would finally be organized and rid of all the clothes I was someday gonna fit back into (Bahahahah riiiiight). That I would comb through every cabinet, closet and dresser drawer and throw out all the unnecessary crap we have accumulated over the past 9+ years in this house.
Wanna know how many things I’ve checked off that super awesome list?!?!?! THREE…three measly things. I thought I was going to KonMari the shit out of my life before I knew what the heck that was. How is it that you accumulate so much stuff with a baby? How is it that we accumulate so much stuff in general? The truth is, there is clutter in what feels like every nook and cranny. It’s clean, but there is crap everywhere!!!!! The bedroom we have designated “the play room” has become an oversized storage closet where no playing is actually done. You can see that lovely room in the picture below…I promise we are not hoarders guys!
I quickly realized that my expectations did not match my reality. The reality is that unless the baby is sleeping I am not getting much done around the house. Especially now that she’s been walking for a few months. And when she is sleeping sometimes I just wanna binge watch Mrs. Maisel, You or The Tudors (all of which I have completed in the last several weeks and man they were good)! My “workday” starts anywhere from 4:30-6 am and ends at about 7 pm when she goes to sleep. Sometimes I have the night shift and sometimes I get lucky and she will sleep 10-12 hours straight for me. We’re still nursing, so it’s all me all the time for those nighttime wake ups.
While I know there will always be much to check off my growing to do list, I also know we have done some incredible things not on that list. We took our baby to 12 states and Canada before she turned 1. We took swim lessons and thankfully she loves the water. I am finally getting back to working out so I can feel better about myself and not cringe when I look in the mirror. I started this blog so I can have a creative outlet just for me. Even though I am not dedicating as much time as I’d like to it, something is better than nothing. I cook a lot more than I did when I had a day job. I’m getting back into photography because I am obsessed with photos. These are all wins I can be proud of.
While all of those things are great, the most amazing thing I’ve accomplished has been watching my tiny human grow, nurturing her sassy personality and being there for her when she needs me. All day. Every. Single. Day. To be able to watch her figure out new things lights up my life. This is not something I take lightly and I know that I am lucky to have the option to be there for all of it.
I would be lying if I said staying home isn’t absolutely the hardest fucking job I have ever had. On the bad days I am envious of the working mamas and miss my former work life. Then I remember that I can never get this time back, so to me, it is worth it. Working mamas have their own hardships and we are all just doing our very best for our little ones.
Do you all have any tips to help me be more efficient and get through my dreaded to do list? How about any challenges you’ve had while transitioning from a working mama to a stay at home mama? I would love to hear about it in the comments below.